Autopictography

"We are meant for eachother and we are not meant for eachother. It's a contradiction"

Vicky Cristina Barcelona

Helena, you hit the jackpot.

The Shins' Sleeping Lessons ......

the most perfect wording of feelings ive ever read. mastery.

this movie made me want to change my name to Charlotte. Ive never related to a character more in my life. ( Lost In Translation)
My first crush as a young girl. When the fascination with all things dark and elightening began.

I'm a girl from a good family who was very well brought up. One day I turned my back on it all and became a bohemian. - Brigitte Bardot


We knew the girls were really women in disguise, that they understood love, and even death, and that our job was merely to create the noise that seemed to fascinate them. -
- The Virgin Suicides, Directed and Written by Sofia Coppola

Jack's autobiography. I have a love/hate relationship with this book, call it jealousy and admiration combined.

"I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion."

Prime 25?

I just read my first blog post ever and realized I'm on the same boat. "Prime 24" is no longer going to be valid after March 20th. PRIME 25. YIKES! Pretty sure I started prematurely with the quarter life crisis's. I noticed that after I filed taxes yesterday and realized I had three seperate jobs and three separate addresses to report to the IRS for 2009. (Have I mentioned how fun it is to hunt down W2 forms from New York? A complete blast. )

Where I thought I'd be at age 25 when I was 8 years old:
- Married
- 2 kids
- 2 dogs ( St. Bernard and a Great Dane, the cow-looking ones)
- no cats
- big house with trampoline in back (for me, not the kids)
- at the top of my career

Where I am 3 weeks away from turning 25:
- Unmarried
- Zero kids or potential of having kids any time soon
- 1 and a half dogs. ( a terridoodle and occasionaly a bulldog)
- NO CATS! (good job nicole, stay the path.)
- living at home with the folks, no trampoline.
- dipping my toes in my new career

And you know what? That's fine. As they say, "If you want to make G-d laugh, tell him about your plans." I don't think I would have been happy had I followed my rigid plans nor do I think I'd be the same person. I also would have missed out on alot of opportunities and fun if I had my 2 kids and 2 dogs (raising a St. Bernard and Great Dane is a HUGE responsibility.)

Overall, I can say 24 was an interesting year. I moved out of my apartment and in with my parents, out of my parents house and into a shoebox in New York, out of my shoebox in New York and back to my parents. I left the American cancer society to work for the American cancer society, left the American cancer society to work for a CPA/ Wealth Management firm. I dyed my hair brown to then dye my hair blonde to then dye my hair brown. Basically the only thing that remained constant was my relationship status........lol.(you gotta be able to laugh about yourself...otherwise you'd go mad.)

For this 25th year of life, all I want is peace. My anxiety and stress levels have been shot (diets dont work but a cracked nervous system sure does). Also, this is all within myself, I wont count on anyone or anything to provide this. I just want to be content where I am and stop planning or doing things just because "ive always wanted to do that" (hence the platinum blonde hair stage). For once in life, I am going to go with the flow and let everything unravel at its ownpace......ok nevermind, even just writing that sentence stressed me out....just kidding!