10,000.

My blog has hit 10,000 views!

in commemoration, here are some random facts/thoughts about my blog:

-On average, each post has about 150 views and i think i can whole heartedly say my viewers are 25% friends and family, 50% randoms, 25% foes.

-I also think (or hope) some people open my blog just to listen to the playlist.

-some people send me messages opening with "i hope you dont think im a stalker but...."
and i love it. i dont find anyone to be a stalker/lurker/creeper. thats what FB is for, to explore the people in your community and see how much you have or dont have in common with complete strangers. its vonderful.

-i want to write my blog forever, and i dont want to cringe when i read it in forty years like i cringe when i read my 5th grade diary. not because of bad grammar or spelling but because i had nothing worth noting. (maybe im a lil harsh on my fifth grade self, i mean whats really worth noting during that age?)

-im absolultey terrified of sharing political opinions on my blog even though im HIGHLY opinionated. Because, if someone were to respond with differing opinions, that would start the War of the Worlds. Im still at the immaturity level in which i need to have the final say so this battle would go on forever.I learned after the Bush Election in 2004 to keep my mouth shut when it comes to arguing. I think i lost about 8 years of my life from the stress and anxiety of my debates. These days, i try to follow the adage: 'To each his own' (ugh.)

-My blog will probably be called Prime 24 forever. 24 was highly memorable and one of the worst years so far. I like how i had all these expectations of being in my prime before I turned that age and how in fact i ended up being so far behind from it. Its a reminder to me that we know absolutely NOTHING. and how beautiful that statement really is.

-my favorite time to blog is after a frustrating moment at work. I need that adrenaline to get me through the entire post and i need the writing process to calm me down and re-set my focus. no one in my office knows i blog. its my lil secret. maybe one day ill let them in on this...i think theyd be in shock as alot of people are when they read my thoughts.

- The song that plays with each post is picked specifically for that post for whatever reason. nothing is random. to me, it flows perfectly well.

-subconsciously i think I started writing this blog because i felt 'misunderstood' by the vast majority of people. the irony to me is that blogging feels self-righteous and that is precisely what some people think i am. oi vai.

- I keep re-writing a post entitled, 'Letter to my 10 year old self' . I may or may not just keep it to myself. I'm not sure, its been really hard to write for whatever reason.

- Another post ive been working on consists of deep questions from my best friends. some questions are "why do you like to torture yourself?", "why are you so selfish sometimes?", "how do you like such extremely opposite things at the same time". you can see why this is a work in progress; its a self-psychoanalization in progress.

- my favorite posts to re-read are the ones about my friends

- the most fun post to write was the questionnaire

- my least favorite post to write was the one about airports; i dont know, it just bothers me to re-read it. it sounds dumb when i read it again.

- i cringe every single time i post my status update with my new blog post. it feels a lil "Look at me! these are my thoughts!" but i mean....what else am i supposed to do? if i didnt blog with purpose to entertain my friends/family/foes/randoms, i wouldn't blog at all. my private blog made it to 3 posts before i quit.

....that's all. thanks for reading my stupid/random/sincere/weird/fantastical thoughts. for whatever reason you do read this blog, i hope you continue and i hope i can relate to you in some way or another or inspire you to write in some way or another. Trust me, this blog is the best gift ill ever give my 60 year old self.

and now, i leave you with one of my favorite quotes.

“ Know yourself fully before making promises to another. Make many mistakes so you’ll know the right decision when it really matters. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often, and without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself up to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Never mislead anyone, especially yourself. Have the courage to admit when you’re wrong. Awaken to the brilliance of ordinary moments. See goodness in the world. Strive to be your best. Be bold. Be grateful. Be wild and gloriously free. Be you. "- Jeannete LeBlanc